November 24, 2015 By The FellowshipThis past Saturday, Keren Claster, who works in The Fellowship’s Jerusalem office, gave birth to a son. As she celebrates this new life, she also grieves for the continued terror attacks happening just minutes from her home. She shares her bittersweet feelings below.My heart can't deal anymore. Mazel tov!!!! I gave birth yesterday to a gorgeous, healthy boy. I sit in the hospital holding new life in my hands, filled with hope and love. And then I glance at the news.... And once again see that ten minutes away from my home – where my kids and husband are – a teenage girl was stabbed and murdered. And we all wait anxiously for the name of the victim. Who is the girl? Do I know her? Am I going to find myself mourning someone I know or once again mourning the general situation? Does it matter? Should I feel a relief if I don't know who she is? She is a full world – a daughter, a sister, a friend – to someone. I want it to stop! My husband was at that exact place this morning – he went to buy some things for the house and to bring to the hospital. It feels like it's caving in – getting closer and closer. At times it feels suffocating. And within those moments that I feel that I have no air, I look down at my newborn baby and speak to my four kids who are at home waiting for me and realize that I must be strong. We have to believe, hold on to hope, raise our head high, and be strong. This will end, justice and good will win. I believe in God and in His promises to the Jewish people!